sick kittens

ugh! on friday i got a call from the program director of the rescue group i am fostering for- she told me i "forgot" one of the kittens at the shelter! - i did not forget- i got the whole sibling group, but she had wanted me to also get another kitten who i knew nothing about, and niether did the shelter. so i went to pick little Blue up. He is a 4 weeks older than the other kittens but the same weight. he has SEVERE diarreah and was/is severely dehydrated. to keep him alive i have been syringe feeding him sugar water mixed with high calorie kitten food. he is on three meds and now the other kittens are all coming down with a cold, and will have to get on meds.the kitten with the runs is pooping EVERYWHERE and i am cleaning the room multiple times a day. i have to wake up at night to give him the sugar water, just so he makes it through the night...i am SO tired. i signed up for healthy kittens. these kittens (especially one of them) need round the clock vet care. i am so worried one is going to die and i am going to have a kitten death on my hands...

pictures

these are the foster kittens, one is hiding! we have 5 and they are 8 weeks old. they are the skinniest, sickliest little things ever...i hope they get well quickly, poor dears!




here is a pict of the baby from about 3 weeks ago. i will get another one done in about 4 weeks, and then (hopefully) we will know if it is a boy or a girl..notice the cute crossed legs in this one though! and although it looks as though he/she does not , she DOES in fact have arms..lol

Father's day ramblings

wow this day is quite a day now. never was a blimp in my radar screen before.
i was raised by a single mom. never met my dad till i was 8. we wrote letters back and forth and only met once. i remember paddle boating on town lake...then he dropped out. i remember waiting for him to take me/meet me at some theme park, but he didn't show. i remember my mom telling me he wasn't interested in being a father. i remember hurting deeply over this.. then over the years that hurt got covered up and faded, until it became nothing but a blimp in my radar screen.i didn't need a father, didn't want one..but whatever i told myself does not change the fact that not having a father, being rejected by my father did have a profound impact in my life.i give all the credit to my Father GOD who gave me back the things my natural father never gave me.He gave me a self worth apart from who i am (or am NOT) in a man's eyes. he gave me love and acceptance.but most of all HE CLAIMED ME AS HIS! nothing stands in God's way to his claim on us. we are his , i am his.wether or not my earthly father claimed me when i was child or claims me now matters much much less in the face of such unfailing love.
(i must say for the sake of truth and kindness and forgivness- i have, and continue to forgive my father. He, like us all, is merely a failable human. I certainly will be the first to admit i have done many things to many people that i hope they can forgive me for. And the story i belived as a child was not the whole , complete and truthful story. it was not nearly as simple as my father didn't want me. that would not be true to say. And , last year i did find my father and now am able to slowly reconstruct the whole story (as much as is left to be found).Things are not perfect, but God's hand in on the whole situation , and in it i have found rest. I thank the Lord for giving me that missing piece of my life, my story back to me. I will continue to pray for a full restoration of the relationship-because i KNOW God has a heart for restoration...)
And now in my life fatherhood has taken on another meaning as well. i now have a husband, a father to my children. a kind, loving and involved father. how blessed am i? how blessed are my children?? I hope someday they see how truely they are blessed to have the father they do!

so, these are the thoughts floating in my head, today on the day we celebrate our fathers...

back to public posting!

ok i realize i have WAY less motivation to post when my blog is on private so i have set it back to public, yay!

here are our updates----
my pregnancy- i am finally heading out of the throw-up-everyday stage, but unfortuantly that transitioned into having migraine like headaches almost everyday..yuck . i am SOOOO tired of being down for the count, of my house being a wreck, of not being able to do lots of fun things with the kids.. i am ready to move into the land of the living!
our fostering- we are on the list- but only for babies and because of ratios ect ect they will only let us take super short term placements, which means we won't get a placement. So, we signed up to be kitten foster parents. austin is over-run with kittens and town lake animal shelter is putting them to sleep everyday. there is a new great orginization called Austin Pets Alive! . they pull pets off the euthinazia list every day, provide vet care care and put them in foster homes till they get adopted.so, this is who we will be fostering for!
our flood remodel- well most of this done, but we are still painting and we have yet to do the tile or flooring in the bathroom. again, i am waiting for some energy so i can do this!