Sebastian turns 3!!

Happy birthday my sweet, sweet boy!!! you are a joy to me and a blessing from God !

the rollercoaster

so after everything, court was a complete suprise- and not in a happy birthday! kind of way...
they have decided (not the judge mind you-they had the hearign reset) to move foster daughter to her daughter's foster home...
the problems with this are very real...
-this is a single, working foster mom to only A's daughter. she has never had teens, and she works all day long. foster daughter will be at home alone all day long (since she does homebound) with no rides to her appointments (therapy, OB), her classes (twice a week parenting), and ~~here's the kicker~~ her daughter has to remain in daycare all day long, and A will not be allowed to take her anywhere ever, so she can't even come over here and visit if she wants to be with her daughter. Plus there is the fact this woman (sweet as she may be) has been raising this little girl since March, so not only will it be VERY akward for A to "parent" her daughter ..but this is one report away from A losing everything. If A makes one misstep- coming in late, not doing chores on time, ect- all the foster mom needs to do is tell the case worker and A is outta there, without another shot. And you better believe that foster mom will be on alert to anything- even if she thinks she wants to support reunification. she is biased. she wanted to adopt this little girl she has been the sole care provider of for almost 7 months. this is just human nature here..
the whole situation smells to high heaven like a FAIL set up for A. She is heartbroken and freaking out- because not to mention all the other stuff- but A does not do well with change. she is finally comfortable and settled. we have worked out our kinks and this feels like a home to her... now that is being taken away, just like it always is. she wants family, one to be in and the one she is creating with her children. she dosnt want to be yanked back and forth like a rag doll.
OH YEAH! almost forgot- the true kicker to this move! the foster mom has said REPEATEDLY she CAN NOT keep A once she has the baby. so it another GUARUNTEED move for A and children in Jan, strait from the hospital after giivng birth..you heard me right, THIS is CPS's BRILLIANT plan.....
PLEASE PLEASE keep praying- i know God can right this wrong, i know he can and does make good situations out of bad. We need some more divine intervention!

he has provided

God is so faithful!
He has provided a way to over and abundantly provide the funds for a nanny! And , he did it in perfect time. now, i can go into court on Friday saying we have a plan, and A (foster daughter) doesn't need to be moved anywhere!!
Maybe, with this new info they will be more keen on returning her daughter to her, as this gives her a solid and stable place to raise her.
I am so excited and revived to get such a strong YES answer from God on the direction we should be headed. i can't say it enough- he is so very faithful!!!

prayers

So we are in a bit of a pickle... CPS has decided that they want to move foster daughter to another foster home ASAP because they don't think i can handle it after my baby comes. (they are probably right about that!) But my husband came up with a solution- hiring a full time nanny (at least for dec and jan ((i am due dec 15th, she is due jan 1st))). now, the problem with this is well...money. Gabe makes good money, but we don't have anything close to the cushion for hiring someone 40 hours a week at $10 an hour.. So, i have been praying like crazy that God would provide a way. Foster daughter doesn't want to move and i don't want her to move . So, if it is God's will for her to stay here, money should be a minor thing, right? After all, God owns it all! Still, i am so human and prone to worry. We have court next friday and we really need the money by then , so we can provide the alternative to the judge so she will ask her NOt to be moved. All the verses i keep coming across in my daily bible reading center around being still and letting God fight for you---so i need to remind myself about this!

So, please pray for us!