yucky yucky permanency conference

permanency :
The quality or state of being permanent; continuance in the same state or place; duration; fixedness; as, the permanence of institutions; the permanence of nature.

Sweetpea's permanency conference was today, where they told him the goal was now adoption. it was very sad he was crying. he didn't understand most of what was told to him. they were lofty and used words he didn't know the definition of.
He says he DID go in for the paternity test, just last week. if that is true (and the test is pos)they will investigate his mother (to place sweetpea there).but i asked what will happen for visits if she goes to grama- they said he will still have to have supervised visits and that he cannot go over to grama's house. i dont know how "Down" with that grama will be. this is so not a clear cut case. we may lose our baby. we may not. there is no permanency here, they will drag this case out, and round and round like a cat with a mouse, for as long as it suits their purposes.
i just have to keep reminding myself that we are never promised another day with any of our kids-or even another day for ourselves on this earth. we have no plans that cannot change at the drop of a hat.i have to rest in the Lord's will and let that be sufficient.