wanting spiritual fruits (not religious nuts!)

so i am going to attempt to type all (or some) of the that accompany the work God is doing in my heart right now.
thinking of losing sweetpea is HARD. i get discouraged. i went to the church that my kiddos do AWANAS at this past sunday. my hubby usually goes but i needed a break from the littles, so he kept them at home i took the big ones to AWANAS.
to hear the sermon click here, scroll down to Genesis 12.
anyhow the pastor was talking about how the bible tells the same story over and over- God makes promises for certian things-usually blessings of the womb or of a homeland, then those promises are put in jepordy and it looks like they will not come to pass. but hose who love God still believe in God's promises, and then the are fufilled (though those who were promised sometimes do not see the full fufillment)
anyhow the pastor asked how we could doubt our faithful God and i was struck with tears. i have been so doubtful in this situation- and the TRUTH is EVEN IF sweetpea does not stay, God put this in my heart, and God's heart is for adoption and there IS a purpose, and he will complete this- which brings me to a passage i read in my last year's bible study in the amplified bible which speaks of this
Psalm 57:2i will cry to God most high, who preforms on my behalf and rewards me-who brings to pass his purposes for me and surely completes them!
and the pastor later in the sermon asked- are you in love with the promises of God or the God of promises? and truely if our eyes are on God, nothing else matters. when we desire his will good things come-
romans 8:28
and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
AMEN!