arggggghhhhh

if you have somehow managed to find this (aunt who lives in my state, you know who you are ) -here is me waving and telling you to leave.

sigh my friend is drumming up more drama and sent my blog to her aunt (i know from sitemeter someone was searching for specific things in a specific area) to try to drum up more drama. apparently because i mentioned her LAST year without anything super identifying, the sister feels like she should spread it all around.. so i am not sure how effective my PRIVATE blog is? i think she found most of the info RIGHT BEFORE (hours) i set it to private. this is REALLLLLLYYYYYY frustrating. i want her to leave me alone. no good deed goes unpunished, right?
hopefully the casa , new caseworker (old one quitting next week), and GAL can come up with what is best for Dancer. i have my opinion of course, but i know that #1 i may not be right and #2 it may not matter because CPS dosn't always do the right thing - two points no one else in the situation seems to get.

ruby trying to walk and flooring

mama and baby's room


my room


Dancer and Lucca's room
obviously the rooms are not put back together yet, but aren't those floors awesome??

and all the privacy

sigh... it has been a hard two weeks, filled with drama!
first i have a relative who has taken to being overley intrusive and judgemental over the things i post in my blog and on my facebook (ie. my life). Even though she hasn't seen me in 2 years, she assumes she knows everything about me and of course everything i am doing wrong. she has it so far off it isn't even funny.
Then to top that off we had major drama via my new placement. she is wonderful, perfect and the sweetest 12 year old you ever met, but there is drama in other ways. she is my very close friend's sister. i have known them both for years. the sister wanted her to be here, because she could not take her for several reasons.then a few days before placement she flips on me, demanding i never ever post about her sister (despite the lack of names pictures ect) i refused, though i did offer to work with her on what i would or wouldnt post. then she decided she didnt want me to take her at all, the night before she needed to be placed, (where she thought she should go right then i have no idea). Dancer was fine with being on my blog, and was reading my blog already!. but now a week later the sister had been talking to Dancer, telling her a million reasons why she should NOT be on my blog , and also personal stuff about me, not in a favorable light. Now sister has decided that Dancer should be placed in her home, like tomorrow and wants me to make that happen! Dancer dosnt want to bounce around (understandably!) and certainly dosnt want to move right now. there is no way i am going to advocate for something that is not want my foster child wants, and that i dont belive is in her best interests (right now) all the issues that made sister not want to take her before are still there. i have seen too many relative placements fall through because of a relative who really should not have been taking more onto their plate.
So now here we are, waiting to see what CPS will do, if they will move her yet again...
on Ruby's note, we met her ADOPOTION WORKER yesterday, praise the Lord! she said in one month the 90 days for relatives to come out of the woodwork will be over then her status will change to an adoptive placement. we will then get a homestudy update and then we can ADOPT!!!
Our house is still a disaster, allthoguh flooring upstairs is being installed yesterday and today. we are still getting estimates for the bathroom rebuild. and our downstairs floor will be installed after april 1st.

private

i am making my blog private for the time being. please email me if you are a regular reader and would like to keep reading.
kirynspiscesmama@gmail.com

The dancer

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my 12 year old got here Sunday night, and has picked her own pen name. she is Dancer, which is quite suited to her seeing as she is always dancing and singing. She brings music into everything, it's great!
our first day out (mon) we went to Walmart to pick up a few things and we had quite the fiasco. Dancer wore her firend's heelys and tried to turn a corner and well...missed. she fell on her ankle and sprained it. Walmart freaked out (assuming we were going to sue or something), and we got her a wheelchair to get her out to the car. now she is on crutches or hopping. my husband says it is like having a kangaroo living in the house, HOP HOP HOP.. lol
But everything is going well. Mama is out of town for spring break and i am starting to really miss her. she is alot of fun to talk to.
We will be changing Sweetpea's birth name when we adopt. So, we have started calling her by the name we will change it to, which is Ruby. So, from now on she is Ruby on here too!

sebastian

sebastian fell asleep on the rug with Levi!



hi hair is crazy cute, swirls in 20 different directions and in the right weather it curls.

well i am a year older (turned 28 on thursday!) ,and my house is still destroyed but i am more used to it. things are going well with Mama and baby. she has settled down and has been *gasp* helping around the house and coming home on time. LOVE that! I really enjoy her when she is not yelling at me , lol.
We will probably have our new kiddo on Mon. she is 12 and i dont have a pen name for her yet...hmmmm
Things are actually looking really good today. funny thing is things looked SO bad one week ago. PRAISE THE LORD!!
this has been the verse i have been reading and re reading and cling to.
Psalm 40 :1-3
I waited patiently for the Lord,
he inclined to me and heard my cry.
He drew me up from the pit of destruction,
out of the miry bog,
and set my feet upon a rock,
making my steps secure.
He put a new song in my heart,
a song of praise to our God,
many will see and fear
and put thier trust in the Lord

who is your somebody>?

how many of us are blessed enough to have a sister who isn't even related to us? Someone who runs thicker than blood? who always helps us whenever we need it. if you have this you know what i mean. if you don't , you wish you did!
My somebody is Amy. I met her four years ago, and she continues to amaze me today. she has helped my family in far too many ways to count. if help is needed she is there. i can't even begin to thank her enough for all she done for me. on a day like today i know that if it were not for her help, i would be unable to do anything! honestly, i feel guilty because i know i can never repay her. it's is strange how we are indebted to some people while other people are indebted to us. it never seems even!
THANK YOU Amy!!!!! you are wonderful!

a little imput please?

are my post negative? i don't find myself to be a negative person. actually i consider myself an optimist. but apparently, according to some i am. and according to some i am that way because i have too many pets and kids. i don't see it this way. my house is 9 times out of 10 a happy place. yes, the flu sucks. taking on a teenage foster placement has it's rough moments...and having your house flood is stressful. but the guy who came to clean up the water told me i was taking it extreamly well. he said many people yell at him. i was laughing, joking and serving him coffee. i take most everything thrown my way with humor. i am sorry to all of you if i have come across as a downer.
I want whatever i present to the world to be real, but in the reality to honor God with all the blessings he has bestowed on us!!

still wet

we found the floor in my teen's room is wet now. the guys had forgotten to check that room. sigh . so now there are more fans blowing, but i am thankful that most of them are done. the insurance company is crazy and gave me a low ball number. can't get ahold of any caseworkers for teen , so i am having a problem bringing up consequences since CPS won't back any of them. she is having court today, although she is not at court, she is at school. most days she doesn't go to school though. she has decided she does want to stay here now, but i won't be surprised if she changes her mind the second reality comes down. you know, consequences, rules, chores..lol
another strange thing keeps happening. every week or so Sweetpea's bio dad (whose rights are terminated) keeps calling me to check on her. it is akward to say the least.
we are also having problems with getting appointments (medical ) for either teen or baby. apparently no one will take superior medicaid , which is what foster kids have. it has been like pulling teeth.

picts of the flood

good morning everyone!


my squishy bathroom


my bathroom, being gutted


this is what used to be my living, and is now my squished living/dining. the dining room is sealed off with huge fans sucking the humidity out of it.


all the choas has resulted in people sleeping in very odd places. This is Lucca asleep in Bertha's doggie bed.

please, add some drama to my drama

well, yesterday was eventful ! i awoke at 6:30 AM to the sound of dripping. drip drip drip, trickle trickle. so naturally, i wake Gabe up to see what it is. Well somebody left the water in the bathroom sink trickling all night. it filled the sink, filled the cabinet, filled the floor and soaked through the sub floor. Then it poured through the ceiling of our dining room, at which point it soaked our bamboo flooring. it was bad. real bad. the casualties are the floor of the bathroom, the bathroom cabinets, the bathroom baseboards, the ENTIRE dining room ceiling, and all my beautiful bamboo flooring in both the dining and living rooms. The water so graciously left alone the wood parquet flooring in the kitchen that I hate. nice huh? So now my prayer is for the insurance to cover everything!! and there are 6 fans and 2 de-humidifiers going right now. my house sounds like a wind tunnel. it is driving....me...batty....!
i have lots of fun pictures to share later today.